Day 23 - Guilt

2020 April 9

Thursday

8:30pm:

Survivor’s guilt? Can I even call it that?

I feel guilty for my life remaining largely unchanged, other than everyone being home and the kids not having school, some changes at work, and alterations to how we shop for groceries. I’m an introvert who largely keeps to myself, my best friend is my husband, and everything I really need I have here. Our house is big enough that everyone can retreat to their own corner when needed, and we have a generous yard with lots of space for outdoor activities. I’m an anxious person, so I’ve been building our food stockpile since January, anticipating things would get rough by this point.

The overall impact of restrictions on my life is pretty small compared to others.

My extrovert friends are clearly less okay than I am.

I’m worried about them, especially as I see this stretching on for a lot longer. This is the new normal, and I think it will be harder for them to adapt to.

Numbers for my area:

March: 29 cases (2 deaths)

April 1: 35 cases
April 2: 40 cases
April 3: 52 cases
April 4: 55 cases
April 5: 61 cases (3 deaths)
April 6: 65 cases
April 7: 93 cases (4 deaths)
April 8: 123 cases (8 deaths)
April 9: 137 cases